Nyet nyet. I always feel damn motivated after fucking up my papers but only to find that that motivation has died off after holidays. Hohumm.
So for those of you who didn’t know, I’ve basically been living in the Monash library for the past month. I go there at 8am and I come home at night. I shit, I sleep and I wake up and I am back there again.
I’m beginning to really feel quite shit about myself in terms of studies. It’s quite frustrating sometimes, cos no one ever believes me. Yes I have a track record of having relatively good results but - Pharmacy is just. It’s just not cool man.
What got me into Pharmacy? I don’t know. What did I expect? I don’t know.
I don’t know. I am honestly damn upset. I’ve never felt so demotivated in my life. Everyone just thinks that I do OK, but the fact is - I am not. With the amount of effort I’ve been putting in - I am still struggling to.. hmm.. grasp everything.
Perhaps more effort will pay off, but how much more of my life do I have to give up? I guess it all comes down to how much I want this and how much I am willing to sacrifice. I guess I got to work harder and more consistently.
Wondering if I should continue with Starbucks next semester. HAHA. Like that is even an option - barely getting by since I took a month off from work.
Anyways, Masterchef taiiim. Goodbye